Busy Busy Busy

With a deployment I have been given tons of advice on what to do during this time...Right now I am trying to stay busy. This is not as hard as you would think. With the addition of chores that he normally does and my self set goals to complete all craft projects started during his previous deployments I find there is plenty to do. Now to get the motivation...I know I can do it but need to find the best way to have it happen. Updates to come. Now should I scrapbook, paint, sew or a little of each?

Sometimes you just have to cry

So I have joined the ranks of military wives whose husbands have deployed. I am 6 weeks in and I feel like it is going to last forever. I'm so tired and grumpy. I really need a hug and friends hugs are not enough. I think tonight is just a rough night in a long line of rough nights. I'm worn out mentally, emotionally and physically. I'm stressed and just don't have the energy or drive to do something about it. I feel like I am spending so much time telling myself and others that I am ok and things are normal and they are not. Part of me is missing and I do NOT like it. I'm scared and at times I feel alone. I know in my head I am not alone but that message doesn't always get to my heart. I must have faith that he will return safely. I look forward to that return but it seems a long way off. SO for tonight, I will mope, perhaps cry and then tomorrow will be a better day. One day closer to his return. One day closer to my heart and soul being complete.